So nothing can contain me

Lately I've been reading this book that I definitely recommend to anyone wanting to fall more in love with Jesus... it's called "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan. So, some of this entry is inspired by what the Lord's been telling me through that book, and also just by His enormous presence in my mind recently.
The book helps outline those basic, fundamental truths about who God is, how unfathomably big He is, and how unbelievable it is to think that He shrinks Himself to be small for us on a daily basis. By saying that, I in no way am expressing that He can be contained or put into some box for us to tote around. No, indeed! Instead I mean that He, being so grand and big in nature, makes Himself approachable on a personal level with us, some comparatively small creatures He loves in such a big way. The only way a big God can.
There's a video you need to watch... so open a new window on your computer and just watch it: Go to www.crazylovebook.com, and click on videos. Find "The Awe Factor of God", and be amazed.... that's right... right now.
HOW SMALL ARE WE?!?!?! Pretty humbling, isn't it?
So, for God, in all His splendor, to love us in such a big way, is pretty dang unbelievable, right?
That's what I've been struggling with lately. I start my days with a quiet time, and a quick prayer... and I end my day with a chapter of the book and a longer, journaled prayer. But somewhere in between the beginning and the end, I forget Him. I forget my First Love. I am not conscious of His moment-by-moment presence in my life, and I have trouble living out my days trying to glorify Him in everything I do. It's so repeatedly brought to my attention every night: His great love for me, and how much I screw our relationship up every single day. How dare I come off as a God-loving and fearing Christian, someone who can so easily advise others to do His will, when I'm not even doing it myself? How dare I pray as if I love Him back, when I don't live like it? It's as if I come home and say I love Him so much every night, kiss Him on the cheek in the morning, and then go off and carry on an affair with my other "gods" all day long.
I feel so horrible about not loving Him back in the way He deserves. I do try, don't get me wrong. It's just mind-blowing to think that He comes and embraces me with such incredible grace and mercy, with the kind of love that can only pour out of His enormous heart, makes Himself approachable for me, and I keep pretending so much. He knows I do, too. I just can't wrap my mind around how BIG He is, and how SMALL I am, and how GREAT His love is for me, and how FEEBLE mine is for Him.
So, my heart is overflowing with praise for my Love... "O for a thousand tongues to sing my Redeemer's praise"
Here's the song my heart is crying out....

I want to burn for You
I want to burn for You
I want to burn for You
So nothing can contain me.
I want to burn for You
I want to burn for You
I want to burn for You
So the Earth will see Your glory.

Crimson to white... to Streets of Gold.

I hear the Savior say,
"Thy strength indeed is small.
Child of weakness, watch and pray.
Find in me thine all in all."
And now indeed I find
Thy pow'r and Thine alone
Can change the leper's spots
And melt the heart of stone.
And when before the throne
I stand in Him complete
"Jesus died my soul to save!"
My lips shall still repeat:

Jesus paid it all!
All to Him I owe.
Sin had left a crimson stain;
He washed it white as snow.

Go on up to the mountain of mercy
To the crimson, perpetual tide.
Kneel down on the shore,
Be thirsty no more.
Go under and be purified.
Follow Christ to the holy mountain,
Sinner sorry and wrecked by the Fall.
Cleanse your heart and soul
In the fountain that flows
For you and for me and for all.
On the hillside, you will be delivered
At the foot of the cross justified
And your spirit restored
By the river that poured
From our blessed Savior's side

At the wonderful, tragic, mysterious tree
On that beautiful, scandalous night, you and me
Were atoned by His blood
And forever washed white
On that beautiful, scandalous night

Refreshment

Sometimes miracles happen in small moments.
A heart starts beating,
Eyes open,
Rain drops fall.
I have tasted and seen that the Lord is good.
He's stilled my anxious mind,
Pulsed my numb heart.
Step by step He reminds me of
His unfailing love,
Neverending, unchanging, unadulterated;
Reckless abandon and fearless love.
He's not afraid of hurt,
So He keeps on loving unconditionally.
He's quietly and slowly filled me,
I've begun to overflow.
He lit a spark, and keeps piling on the firewood.
The small flame grows day by day.
Love beckons me day and night;
My delight is being found in Him.
I want to be like I once was,
But He'll take me to new places,
Over hills and down to the depths,
New frontiers to be chartered and explored.
Praise the Lord for His refreshing love!
Praise Him for a renewed spirit!
Praise Him for the rocky road to redemption.