Thursday, November 8, 2007

Ms. Cellophane

Brian and Caleb have always been the best of friends, no matter what kind of trouble Brian always got in. Caleb was always there for him when he came back from it. They had this friend, Abby, that they didn't really know that well until that next year, when it all happened, and they ended up hanging out more often. They got to know each other as a threesome pretty well, mostly because Abby's friend, Rachel, was there, so Abby didn't feel so awkward with hanging out with two guys by herself. HA!
So this one night they stumble upon getting to know this girl named Emma, and she was really fun. Actually, she was probably the most fun one out of the group, which attracted the rest of them to hanging out with her. Abby ended up hanging out a lot more with her than the rest, mostly because she saw her more often and was a girl. :o) But Abby would go to Emma's house, spend the night, go to Emma's school to meet some of her newer friends there, and just make fun of Caleb and Brian, because it was hilarious.
Emma had this friend at school with whom she became very very close, to the point of no return, named Michelle. Abby met her one time during one of her stays at Emma's school, and thought she was awesome right from the start. The three of them started to become a little threesome of friends at some point, and it was really fun, but it always seemed to Abby to be a two-person show for her to be entertained by more than a three-person act. So, she enjoyed it for a while, and became good friends with the both of them. Needless to say, Caleb, Brian, Emma, Abby, Michelle, and Rachel were a team.
They watched movies together, went to dinner at their favorite restaurant almost every night some weeks, and basically did everything together as a group. It was heaven, especially for Abby, whose prayers had been answered for a group of friends who would spur each other on to glorifying God, living out His love, and encouraging one another, no matter what happened. Plenty of things happened, mind you, but I won't go into that. Somehow they all stuck together through thick and thin....

And then the Summer came. How it really happened is still a mystery to most, but Abby had some insight. Michelle had to go back home to Houston, and Emma began to stay at home more, since she had about 3 jobs to juggle through the week, and so let's just say they lost touch. Michelle would try to keep contact with Emma, but amidst such a heavy schedule and hanging out with old friends from home, she just never got the chance to call back most of the time. And when she did, it didn't last long enough to satisfy the longing of Michelle's heart for her best friend. She felt lost in the dust of the car gone by, looking at some brake lights and wanting them to brighten. So, Abby kept in touch with Michelle while she was at home in Houston, mostly because Abby understood the feeling of needing someone trusted to be there for her to talk through a lot of family drama that was going to keep Michelle in Houston for the upcoming year. And Abby did what she could to be that for her. Abby needed help, too, with some drama that came up between her and Brian, so Michelle got her through that. They would talk on the phone for hours, and would have to stop themselves just to keep from losing their cell phones for using too many minutes. They became pretty close over that Summer. It was amazing for Abby because that was another prayer answered: a best friend. I mean, she had best friends, but they were either far away at school, on mission trips, or just kind of out of touch.

Either way, Michelle and Abby became closer than ever over that season of life, and found themselves in that same place when Michelle's many prayers were answered with a way to live up in Dallas with all her friends and her home church, and they rejoiced together for God's amazing work in Michelle's life. Michelle moved up, she and Abby were reunited, and they were like peas and carrots. Caleb came alongside, and they were like a team. I mean they had hypothetical houses on the same hypothetical street and hypothetical kids growing up in their hypothetical wonderland of life-long friendship. It was going to be for good. When Abby moved away to school, some 40 miles away from her home, she knew it was going to be hard to be as active in Michelle's life as well as Caleb's. So, she made sure to let them know, through tears and fears, that she would never be too far away for anything: dinner with friends, hanging out after church, or even just talking. This was also more of a cry for involvement in her life, since she knew it would be hard for her to find friends at her new school. And they understood. At least she thought they did.

Some more drama (I know, it's ridiculous...) came up between Michelle and Caleb on one hand, and then more in the lives of Brian and Abby, which Michelle and Abby got through together, and ended up not even feeling remotely cool toward either of the boys respectively. Michelle would be okay without Caleb's friendship, since it really hurt her more than helped her at that point. And Abby felt that she needed to guard her heart more against Brian's lies and inconsistencies, so she would be more emotionally and spiritually reliant upon God and His good timing. So, neither girl would really want to hang out with their respective guy. And therefore, since both guys were involved at their home church, which they shared with the girls, the whole group just never really got to hang out anymore.
Michelle began hanging out with Emma again, and since they reconciled and because Michelle was feeling kind of homesick, she began staying with Emma at her home (a good 40 miles away from everyone else) and making some great friends in that area of town. She actually began dating an amazing guy from over there, and they hit it off right away. Caleb began working almost double-time to make up for what needed to be done for the fall, and was always really busy. Brian kind of disappeared from the whole scene, which was fine on Abby's part, but kept in contact with Caleb. Because of the distance of her home from the church, Emma pretty much stayed in her hometown, going to school and hanging out with friends.
So, needless to say, Abby had some limited contact with these friends, and only has a few new ones at school that she likes hanging out with. She missed them a lot and still does, only getting to talk to them and hang out with them when they are all separated, making it harder to see them at all. She wishes that they could all hang out together some time and just catch up and relive old times, but doesn't see it happening in the near future, even though it would be a real encouragement. She is beginning to feel like no one really cares that much about her enough to let her be there for them physically, emotionally, and spiritually. She longs to hear all the good and maybe not so good that's happening in their lives, and would love to hang out and catch up, even though it doesn't seem like it's reciprocated. She could be completely over-dramatizing it all in her head, but she's just laying her cards out on the table. And It looks like a losing hand.

Mr. Cellophane, Mr. Cellophane
Should'a been my name, Mr. Cellophane
Cuz you can look right through me,
Walk right by me,
And never know I'm there.

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