Selfish to a fault

It seems as if we're drifting apart, and I really don't think its my fault this time. I know, in the most humble of ways, that I can be selfless to a fault, and that I should take care of myself before others sometimes, but I feel like you're taking that kind of selfishness to a different level. I know you have enough time to listen to the smallest of details when you decide you have the time, but you never make it anymore. You don't make the effort, when you know I will drop everything and get there as soon as I can if you needed me. And it's not like I'm terribly lonely over here; I just miss you a lot. You're one of my few best friends, and I never ever hear from you. I understand that you are really busy, but if you have time to be driving to work, or driving to Wylie, or just hanging out doing nothing with Kristen, then you have time to be on the phone with me. It's just frustrating because I've heard you vent about other friends treating you exactly like this over and over again, and you know I'm one you can talk to because I never do that to you, or atleast I try my best. But it's like it's a blindness you have when your conveniences get taken away when you decide to be selfish. Now, don't get me wrong. You aren't this way at all most of the time... but when you make the conscious decision to put yourself first above someone else, it becomes a habit you can't control. It's MUCH easier serving yourself before others, otherwise it wouldn't be a sin to be conceited. And it's not a bad thing to make sure you are taken care of so that you can take care of others better. But as the other person, I feel left out in the cold. I haven't really gotten to talk to you in weeks. It just feels lonely. So, yeah. Do what you want with this, but just look at yourself first and figure out if you're taken care of yet. If you need more pampering, go for it. But seriously, I'm still here. I'm still in it. Don't think you've lost me because I'm never lost to you.
You know my number.